Sunday, August 7, 2011

Tomorrow is the day. Blood test day. I'm thinking - based on my current lack of any pregnancy symptoms - that it will be negative. Although what should I expect from being less than 2 weeks pregnant? I'm worried about the disappointment & the cost. And what comes next? Is there freedom in having tried everything? Maybe that frees me up to make some different life choices - a job that pays less, more dogs, travel? Should we continue with medical intervention or turn to the woo-woo? Or maybe just stop trying and be ok with that? Adopt? Foster? Move somewhere that doesn't feel like living on the sun? Either way I've got to get off my ass. My current lack of physical activity is embarrassing and probably is impacting my mental health. The dog will be off house arrest in a few weeks and we can walk again (as I promised God we would everyday for her whole life...) so that's a good thing.

Who knows, maybe it'll be a positive test. Maybe.