Wednesday, August 3, 2011

I want to be pregnant. But I'm terrified. Terrified either way - if I am pregnant, if I'm not pregnant. Both are equally as scary. If I'm not - there is the disappointment and the decision to keep trying or not. To continue to pursue a medical solution, or not. If I am pregnant - OMG! So much fear. What if I lose the baby? What if I have multiples and have to do selective reduction, or carry multiples? Complications? Defects? Pain? Weight gain? Ugh! FEAR!!!