Monday, May 9, 2011

I had my saline ultrasound this morning. It sucked. It still sucks.

Basically they inserted a catheter through my cervix and filled my uterus with saline so that they could see if my uterus was a snug & happy place (it is!) or contained polyps or other bad things (it did not!). The doctor had a hell of a time getting the catheter in which involved multiple speculums and multiple attempts. Once he got the catheter in place - which was unexpectedly painful, the saline injection was super painful/crampy/yucky. It was over quickly but it was an unhappy procedure - of all the procedures that we've done so far in this fertility journey, this was the worst.

I'm at work now, and am leaky (blood & saline) and crampy. Lame. I thought about going home and sitting on the couch but I want to save any sick time/work from home time until later in this process. I figured that if I could walk/talk/work - I might as well go into the office.

I spoke at length to the doctor about the IVF process - once we get into June we'll be looking at lots of ultrasounds, blood draws, many hormone injections, egg retrieval, embryo implantation, hormone replacements and hopefully pregnancy... June is going to be challenging, and freaking expensive. He told me that the lab (which is in San Antonio, UGH) won't take my insurance so I'll have to pay up front and then try and get reimbursed from my insurance company. He is going to have his financial people call me to let me know how much money I'll need to have up front, etc.

On my way to work after the appointment I started thinking about how much cash I can get in hand to complete this process. Ugh. I hate the idea of totally cleaning out my saving or, god forbid, have to take a loan or something, but I'll do whatever I have to do. It'll be extra shitty if I totally clean out all my savings and then don't get knocked up. I guess this is why a lot of people have a tough time dealing with fertility issues - it is totally stressful.

I'm hoping that I don't feel this shitty all day. OUCH!